Some time ago, say 2 weeks ago before my exams had officially kicked off their badassery, I decided to catch on several of the things I had backlogs in; gaming news, actual news, happenings in the world, webcomics and of course anime. Of course catching up with the others would be a hell of a ride so I decided to get their respective bookmarks in place and focus on the one that would take me 30 minutes (or less) to complete each episode… that being anime. Generally, I’d go first for shows I’ve been following before I head over to the news one on my list, and at this particular time my radar decided to rest on Beelzebub (which I’ve talked about a bit here). Now those that know a little something about me know my irreplaceable love for Beelzebub, so imagine how surprised I became when I saw I wasn’t that far behind in episodes. I didn’t really understand what was up so I decided to do some digging and know why I had only about 4 episodes left to clear the table, and that’s when I read the news that saddened me.
Beelzebub had ended its run after 60 episodes.
Minutes after that I realized Bleach too had also ended its run (although its manga will run for one more arc before that too ends).
I didn’t quite get it. Surely these shows that I was really getting into could not possibly end just like that. Though it saddened me because I had finally gotten back on track, I could understand Bleach’s scenario, after all having 366 episodes over the span of 8 years under your belt is no small task (Bleach began airing October 2004 and ended March 2012). But Beelzebub was what I couldn’t understand… it had begun sometime 2011 and was already ending 2012. It’s not a Bones production, so I couldn’t understand why it was over. Oga had Baby Beel to take care of, and Baby Beel was meant to grow up a bit and then destroy humanity. So why did they decide to end it? Oga fought some of the Pillar Masters of Behemoth’s 34 Pillar Division, not all. We didn’t get to know a large portion of them either, so what was wrong? Why did it have to end?
Finding out I had lost 2 shows just like that hit me, not in the sense that I didn’t want to eat any longer (I ate a chunkful while watching Beelzebub’s last episodes), but in the sense of having to let something finally go. Accepting wasn’t that easy, and even the final episode of Beelzebub got my eyes a little watery (don’t judge me!) because of both the realization that it was over and the opening story. The ending of course proved that once again the Demon Lord is a flaky cool dude, but I don’t want to spoil anything just yet.
I didn’t watch the final episodes of Bleach until about 3 days later, when I finally picked up the spunk to do just that. I still find it somewhat hard to come to terms with the fact that those two are gone. Oh, and from the looks of things Naruto may be folding its own sheets too, from the looks of things.
What’s my point with all this blabbing? Letting go is some tough stuff, even if it’s for the most mundane things. So far as we’ve got some sort of attachment with them, we’re bound to have them grow with us in one way or the other… like a favorite pair of socks or that ring you and a friend got when you decided to start acting out Power Rangers during breaktime. Letting go is something that isn’t a day’s job, and as much as my non-emotional and logically oriented mind has helped me move on from certain things in life (take my last break-up, which I managed to move on from under about 3 days… I wish I was lying), letting go of something as simple as a TV show has hit me well, and I can say to some extent I can fill someone else’s shoes on this matter. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying I’m an emotionless warlord or some shinobi who would kill for the greater good (that’s an option these days right?), neither am I saying I place digital entertainment over the companionship of someone who’s real, the whole relationship thing was a plethora of crazy so maybe it was thanks to my subconscious mind that I managed to get over the whole ordeal. To be honest, it crushed me deep when it all happened, and I was too secretive (ashamed even) to confide in people to get some of the burden off. Needless to say, I tackled it almost alone (I think I told only 2 ladies about it) and managed to forge ahead and focus on the holidays, because some days after it ended I was to be in IB.
Letting this go is difficult, and Beelzebub taught me that in a different light. But on the bright side there are others that can take it’s slot (note: not place). I am thinking of getting on the Fairy Tail wagon (as I have told all earlier), and silently I’m praying that it’s not when I get the hang of it it’ll end its run. I know there are others as well, and no please don’t mention One Piece. I’ve tried that, enjoyed it, but not moved to continue with it like that. But no beef, other things exist so we don’t really have to feel the complete absence of one thing.
Did that make sense? I’m not too sure… this wine still has its effect on me. *hic*
Next up, red win cupcakes. Mmmmm....
As someone who watches an absurd amount of tv/anime etc this post really resonates with me. I’ve found myself getting teary eyed when a favorite show of mine ends. I remembered I cried so hard when I watched the final scene of LOST and of course Eureka Seven had me in wailing shambles. You spend years with these shows, never missing an episode, growing with these characters and then it all ends.
Fringe is ending sometime later this year or early next year. My tear ducts will flood.
Very heavy stuff. Great write up!